Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Sad truths end a happy year.
I promised to answer when media feeds and when it eats and to tie my entries together, so here come sad truths.
In the Dove Self-Esteem Fund, children’s minds have been affected by the stereotype that only those who are tall, fair, long-haired and thin are beautiful, and that is one of the reasons why more and more children are going through problems like anorexia, etcetera.
I know some of those who have gone through tough experiences wish they had never felt the hurt and the pain, but I know of a few who are thankful for having gone through those trials. Keep Holding On and Way Back Into Love could be songs for those who are thankful and hopeful that they will indeed find ways to fix the chaos in their lives, while I think those who look at their troubles as punishment need to learn a few things from Q&A because experience really can be one the best teachers.
It saddens me that suffering is needed for some people to come to their senses. Just like in the photo of the 9-11 tragedy, the story of A Walk To Remember, Finding Nemo and Somebody Should Have Taught Him, people had to die or get lost before the lead characters realized that they had no way of taking back what had already happened. In all these entries, except for Finding Nemo, the characters were not given another chance to say “I love you” or simply say what they felt. It hurts that it is mostly after something bad has happened that most of us turn to our faith. It is true, you do not know what you have got until it is gone.
The media has always been something that got people thinking since it feeds the minds of those who watch, look and hear, but it also eats. Eleanor Roosevelt once said that you should not let anyone make you feel inferior without your consent, and I think this should be so with the media. The media feeds us information and emotions constantly, but it eats only if we allow it. In media awareness, I have learned to filter what I would like to believe in the media. By reading my entries, I hope you did too.
This year is through and just as the Doodle would like to wish in times of its troubles; my media log has met its FIN.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Keep Holding On
You're not alone, together we stand. I'll be by your side. You know I'll take your hand. When it gets cold and it feels like the end, there's no place to go. You know I won't give in. No I won't give in.
Keep holdin' on, ‘cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through. Just stay strong ‘cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you. There's nothing you can say, nothing you can do. There's no other way when it comes to the truth. So, keep holding on ‘cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.
So far away, I wish you were here before it's too late. This could all disappear before the doors close and it comes to an end. With you by my side, I will fight and defend. I'll fight and defend.
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe. Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny. Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.
I did not know Avril Lavigne could ever sing a song for a movie. I thought she would always just stick to the Sk8r Boi (or girl) wild side. I was surprised when I heard this song. I first heard it on the radio, and I knew it was her because of her accent and there was just something very “Avril” about it. I did not know this was a song for Eragon until a friend, Xtina, told me.
Forget about the whole Eragon thing for a moment. If you have ever heard this song, you probably have already realized that it has quite a nice melody. The instruments that were used in the song and the way they came together create a very moving effect. I personally wanted to hear the song again after the first time I heard it, and I think it is one of the songs that you just want to sing along to – one of the songs whose lyrics you just have to memorize.
I did hear it over and over, and I even read the lyrics lots of times, too. The lines “There's nothing you can say, nothing you can do. There's no other way when it comes to the truth.” really struck me the first time I read through the lyrics. Though many people try to conceal the truth, it will always find a way out. In media, no matter how hard the practitioners try to present the message in a very subtle manner, the viewer will always find out what they are trying to say.
Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's rea
lOr if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Those of you who know this song most probably have seen the movie it is from. I regret it, but I have not seen Music and Lyrics, though I have been meaning to. I have just heard this song a lot of times on the radio and the melody got me the first time.
When I read through the lyrics and eventually memorized them, I realized that there was more to “Way Back Into Love” than a nice melody. It is a duet sung by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennet. Truthfully, I like duets because they make a song seem like a dialogue instead of a bunch of words and notes a non-musician would not understand. Not to be a self-proclaimed expert on music here, but I think that the way the duet sang the song was not really perfect. It is not one of those songs you will just listen and want to sing along to while thinking you can never produce such fine notes as the artist. The way they sang it shows some realism in the topic – love.
I am no one to start talking about love, so I will just end here.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Doodlez
I doodle a lot. Drawing has been some kind of pastime for me, and it has also been an activity for me to feel a bit at peace.
I have been growing fond of this little cartoon on Nickelodeon. There is just something about Doodlez that I have been so interested in. Maybe it is the magic of a hand that draws so easily. The only thing that I do not like about this cartoon is that the magic hand is always so teasing. When the situation seems like it cannot get any worse, that is the only time when the cartoon ends.
This cartoon can be compared to the current situation of our country. Just like in an entry I made in the third quarter, imperialism is growing. The little cartoon could be our country, and the magic hand who controls the cartoon’s life could be like the United States, or any other country that is more powerful than ours.
Somebody Should Have Taught Him
I went to a birthday party
but I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink at all,
so I had a Sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
the way you said I would,
that I didn't choose to drink and drive,
though some friends said I should.
I knew I made a healthy choice
and your advice to me was right
as the party finally ended
and the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my own car,
sure to get home in one piece,
never knowing what was coming,
something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement.
I can hear the policeman say,
"The kid that caused this wreck was drunk."
His voice seems far away.
My own blood is all around me,
as I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
"This girl is going to die."
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
while he was flying high,
because he chose to drink and drive
that I would have to die.
So why do people do it,
knowing that it ruins lives?
But now the pain is cutting me
like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell my sister not to be afraid,
tell Daddy to be brave,
and when I go to heaven to
put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have taught him
that it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his mom and dad had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter,
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
and I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me, Mom,
as I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say
I love you and good-bye.
- Retold by Jane Watkins -
In Health class, we were asked to find a newspaper article that showed the effects of being drunk. Some brought in stories of rape, but most of us handed in articles about drunk driving. I wish poems were allowed to be passed, and then I could have submitted this one instead.
I read this poem in Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul a few years back. This is the only time I opened the book again. I was fond of that poem before (even though some would call me morbid and weird) because the first time I read it, it really struck me. I do not remember when I first read this, but I do remember the way I felt after reading it, and what lines made marks on me the most. I do not drink, and I am not at the proper age of driving yet, but there were lines in the poem that made much more of an impact than the whole drunk-driving-bad-and-it-ruins-lives theme itself: “Tell my sister not to be afraid, tell Daddy to be brave, and when I go to heaven to put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave… I wish that you could hold me, Mom, as I lie here and die. I wish that I could say I love you and good-bye.” I felt sad and guilty because like the girl in the poem, I think I have a lot of things with my family that I have not said or I have not reiterated enough.
In the media, nothing is made just for the sake of it. All media have purpose, and I guess this poem has the purpose of telling people that: one, it is bad to drink and drive; and two, you never know what is going to happen in our world next.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Doomsday Feeling

I got this photo off one of my sources for the research paper in English. The twin towers were a big part of my favorite city, New York, so when I saw this photo, I was really moved.
This shot basically consists of candles and a photo of the twin towers. There is not much light in this shot though there are candles. The only light part here is the sky in the photo of the twin towers. It is the only thing that is different in the picture, so the viewers are easily drawn to it. If you focus on what surrounds the towers, you will see lots and lots of candles. This was the time when those who have lost hope that their friends and relatives would come out of the smoke and debris mourned and grieved for their losses. This shot was taken at eye level, but it does not seem so because there are three levels where the candles are placed.
Everyone who knows about this tragedy will remember this forever. I think that day changed lots of people’s lives, but I find it sad that they had to realize everything in this way.
source: September 11 by Magnum Photographers
Cliche? I don't think so.
I love reading, but I have not been able to find the time to read anything other than my Noli Me Tangere lately. Let us keep this our little secret. In the past two years, I have only been able to finish a book if it involves my reading report in English.
In relation to what I have just said, I finished this book for my reading report in English last year. I actually liked this book after reading it. It is all about an uneducated Indian joining a Who-Wants-To-Be-A-Millionaire-type show. He gets all the questions right so the producers and authorities immediately accuse him of cheating. How could someone uneducated win all the money the show was supposed to offer? I think that they probably wanted to lose all that money on a person who graduated first in his class. Here we see classic discrimination.
In the story, though. The main character did not cheat. Let us just say that cliches are sometimes not so cliche. “Experience is the best teacher.”